Blogging is so 2001-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-not 9.
(The TV says, Twitter's where it's at.)

Man, I've had this journal a long time.

Yesterday was my birthday.
I am now twenty-two!

At work today, one of the nice older ladies that works at the front desk mentioned that 22 sneaks up on you, because you feel like life is pretty much complete at 21. After that, well, it's not so much that there's nothing to look forward to, it's just that you're so content with that odd number that to go even again seems passe.

There's something about this big white box, this cursor, thin, blinking irregularly because my computer is so slow and laggy. I've had this computer for as long as I've had this journal. I believe that's accurate information. Consider that for a moment.

Speaking of work, I do it a lot. Pretty much alllll the time. Which is great. I enjoy what I do. I have two awesome internships. Web internships, at that. Coding. Making. Prettying. Not entirely different from my stint at Miki's dad's business, which happened, incidentally, around the same time I started this journal. Anyway, point being, it's all great, except that I have exactly 91 cents in my bank account. That needs to get fixed immediately.

Anyway, I just wanted to visit this window again. Examine it. Ponder whether I really want to allow comments, or what my mood is, or what music I should pretend I'm listening to.

And now it's done.

http://www.clapclap.org/2008/06/i-cant-wait-to-see-you-again.html

I love shit like this, when the first paragraph is about pop culture (Hannah Montana) and by the end you're learning about philosophy.

At any rate, New Year's always makes me overcontemplative about myself to the point where I realize I'll never really change and should just stop living, so I'm trying to focus on other things. It's going fairly well.

Election's over (finally!) and Obama won. And I voted for him! It was the first time I voted. So that was awesome.

But this article brings up the best points about where we've been (whether we like to recognize it or not), what this election means, and where we could go, from a global perspective: http://www.nytimes.com/2008/11/05/us/politics/05global.html

We'll just have to see what happens! Either way I'm excited to have a new president.

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tomie is one fug motherfuger

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lol

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i have so much to say and no one who is willing to listen or even begin to understand.

i forgot how much i loved this music video.
i miss really intensely angry white girls and the year 2000



in other news, jenni and i got an apartment! yeah!

wkbrazenbrunette: stop being a livejournal whore and come watch womens gymnastics

i haven't been on lj because it's stupid.
but anyway i wanted to write about this because i'm going kind of insane.

my mom got scammed into all this financial aid bullshit.

she sent a letter to mitch mcconnell and then got a phone call the next day from a washington d.c. area code that said i was guarenteed $25,000 in grant money. all i had to do was go to requestagrant.com.

and i was like, well that sounds shady.

how could they possibly know you talked to mitch? how will they know me? is there some kind of special code? well, no. and i just sort of wrote it off and told her we should consider the plus loan like we usually do because this deal sounded so sketchy.

so today i called her and told her i'd like her to apply for the plus loan thing and she just went off. like ten-years-ago insane-o pre-medication kind of going off. i feel bad so i do it and i enter all my information, and she's fuming so i'm talking to my dad, and it's like a million pop-ups asking for money to get financial aid and books and cds and stuff about it. and i google the number and the website address and it's like, these people won't stop calling me, they're based out of the phillipines, i didn't get anything when i ordered and all this shit. well, fuck. i'm telling her and she finally realizes that mitch mcconnell had not personally contacted her about her letter. and she's just upset about it because she was duped.

and the worst part is, i called her to just talk because i've felt really anxious about everything. finding an apartment. magazine. missing chris. work. financial aid. general gross down-in-the-dumps, lonely-even-though-i'm-not-alone kind of stuff. i've been kind of up and down, in sort of a weird place, and i don't feel like i can talk to anyone about it. and my mom's usually cool about everything, but she thought i didn't care about college and all of this suddenly, didn't do what she was saying to get money. and it was just too much to hear her.

i'm just maxxed out, overloaded. anxious about a lot of stuff and the way i deal with it is just doing nothing.
running helps.
working 40 hours a week doesn't. i'll be so glad when i can drop that shit.

i think i just need to get through this next month and all will be good.

ok sorry about complaining.
love.

Dreamy Idealist.

Western finally got Facebook Chat!

this weekend was wonderful:
it felt like how high school shouldve but didnt.

I AM RESTLESS.

i can't stay here any longer i'm sorry goodbye

i'm feeling better
i think

still
having been sick for nearly 2 weeks,
not having a car,
not having a job,
this break has blown

but its alright
i still rock

and i miss you

P.S. MY PHONE'S DEAD AND WILL BE FOR A FEW DAYS I THINK... FACEBOOK ME?

95% Barack Obama
93% John Edwards
93% Hillary Clinton
91% Chris Dodd
83% Joe Biden
82% Bill Richardson
73% Mike Gravel
72% Dennis Kucinich
50% Rudy Giuliani
39% John McCain
34% Tom Tancredo
30% Mitt Romney
29% Mike Huckabee
17% Fred Thompson
8% Ron Paul

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

bobby broke up with tila.

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=41736&blogID=343181662

furthermore:



mario bros. sex ed tape
i can't tell if this is real or not
but i love it

still sick
but feeling better

i might be the only person in the world to find this shit funny



i'm still sick
it fucking sucks
please shoot me

Date:	december 30, 2007 (a sunday) -- 4:03 pm
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick

i'm very sick
and i have no car

this is my first contact with the outside world in a long time
if i do not contact you again in 3 days
i may be dead

kidding
maybe

Date:	december 25, 2007 (a tuesday) -- 5:49 pm
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

what is it about the holidays that makes us want to rethink, reevaluate, reconnect?
i wanna go hooooome so bad.
i don't know when i started calling my apt home, but it is.

dearest jenni in mexico,
i hope you are having a feliz navidad. i'd much rather be with you than be here. i hope you're not sad because you're not with your family. my mom and dad told me to tell you merry christmas, and they wish you could be here. i love love love you. everyone does. don't feel lonely or alone because you're not :)

#1- be healthy - lose weight, work out, get fit, eat better, don't smoke ever, run twice a week, take medicine regularly, quit drinkng soda
get a job that keeps me sane
save money for mexico
reconnect
smile more
be nicer/more respectful/more considerate
stop talking about people--just kidding
keep apartment clean
expand worldview
complain a little less
lock the door
focus on school but still make a great magazine
call jenni more
call mom more

january - so that experience is now finished.
february - It's amazing.
march - Some wonderful articles in the New York Times today:
april - happy birthday, sam scott. :]
may - What makes you sad?
june - INTERNET.
july - sam and i got in a fight
august - No wonder I don't have any goddamn money.
september - i keep people hidden
october - chicago happened.
november - Project we did for my advertising class
december - good old finals week

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2007--lots of highs and lows! good times, bad times. sam, hollister, school. thats what most of my entries are about. oh well

hope everyone did well on finals!

good old finals week
you kept me up all last night
our affair must end

I'm doing a presentation on the Dove "Real Beauty" campaign.



What do you think about this viral ad?

I think some people are going to say, it's nice to see positive imagery in advertising, but it's a lot nicer when it's authentic, not just a cynical corporate trick to sell soap. At the same time, it can be argued that it's a good message regardless of who's sending it, and maybe it can catapult an advertising trend toward healthier models and healthier attitudes.

CUUUTE, i think.

for the second year in a row, sex & candy has left me speechless and cellphoneless.
maybe not a fateful night, but pretty close

eck...
it makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the past couple weeks

oh well.
shake it off.
i'm over it.
let's move on.

i'm going back to worrying just about the mag - no boys, no parties, no drama
it's better that way i think.

so i found one of my flash drives but the other one... all that remains is the lanyard.
i guess someone stoled it :[
this is upsetting because this is the one with my entire portfolio and all my old school stuff.
plus everything for the mag.

not that i was terribly proud of any of that portfolio junk, but i went to go for my resume today and... yeah i don't have it.
this sucks.